Friends

Thanks for the post Holly. It was great to hear from you. Funny you should write because today my friends have been on my heart. There are people that come into your life daily. Funny how there are certain ones that God has ordained to stay, and ones that stay for a season, and those that are passer bys. They are all important, I believe, just here for different reasons. I wonder if we have anything to do with who stays and who goes or if it is what it is and we have no say? I am so not into the whole "guilt trip" thing, but I think we can be our own worst enemies at times. Do you call those who love you enough? Maybe you call them too much?? Maybe you think of them daily and it stops there..oh oh, another birthday missed. You meet someone new and promise to call, but blow it off thinking,"they are busy, they wouldn't want to hang out anyways." Some people make friends so easily and then there is me. You may be in my life for 4 years and then I finally get it..Ohhhh, your my friend! Light bulb moment!! I guess I just don't don't trust that easily and maybe have a hard time thinking someone would actually like to hang with me. Oh, don't feel sorry for me or call me with the name of a great therapist. Been there done that and am still doing that! I may even be preaching to the choir. I think I am really not so alone in this. As you look at the human spirit, you see all the dysfunction, all the false beliefs, all the insecurity...all the humanness. We need each other yet we are so bound to "do it" on our own. We beat ourselves up for not being a good friend and then overcompensate when there is tragedy or a need. All I know is, I love my friends. I am so grateful for them..all of them. They all are so different, yet have one common thread..they are my friends. Please don't take anything I say to heart, after all this is my diary, my mail you are reading. You are seeing into my heart, my fears, my desires. If you can relate...sorry! I do have the name of a good therapist though! Oh yeah, if I haven't said it lately, which I am sure I haven't, "Thank you for being my friend. I love you all!"